my week of learning

well, i think it is a girl. not because of the heartbeat at the dr. office. simply because she is already being strong-willed and having a mind of her own. the heartbeat, you know, the one that i thought i could predict the sex with, well, it was 155!!!! right in the middle of what i THOUGHT it should be! i can feel her moving all around and doing a little dance.... ha ha mommy i fooled you. oh well, we have an ultrasound in 4 weeks, hopefully she will decide to cooperate then!

it is day 8 of the 16 day stretch with bobby gone. it is going much better than i thought it would. i actually feel like i have been a better mommy. i think it is because i know that i don't have that "break" coming home at 6 so i have so much more patience thru-out the day. also, after talking to my very wise sister, it was noted that perhaps i am not worried about the stress of being a good wife also. you know, i don't have to have dinner on the table at 6:30. who knew that was a stress but i guess that is when it starts to wear on my in the day. knowing that i have so much to do before bobby gets home and then levi will throw a fit just sets me off. so i guess all that to say, not that i don't miss bobby a TON, but.... i think this time away has helped me manage my day a little better and not to have such HUGE expectations for myself. i learned a long time ago that i was a perfectionist. and... as contrary as it may sound, if i can't get EVERYTHING perfect, i don't get anything done. as a result, knowing that All the laundry can't get done and the house can't get spotless all the time, i just let it go. this week i have learned that it is okay to do small thing everyday and not have to have a gourmet meal on the table. but instead, just do little things that are not so time consuming and have a house that i would not be ashamed to have someone just "drop in". (not that people do that here.... you don't just happen to "be in the neighborhood")

so i guess what i have learned is:
1. my unborn child is already asserting her own will.
2. it is okay to have to make hamburger helper or a frozen dinner every now and then in order to keep peace and a clean house.

until........